I have a secret.
You want to hear it?
Okay, here goes. I sometimes, well kind of write to my uterus.
As a twenty-something female, I am obviously passionate about my period, I mean what woman isn’t? Actually in recent months I have discovered that many women are in fact not at all interested in what goes on down there. Each month, their primary goal is to make sure that “whatever people are calling it these days – aunt flow, life ruiner or crimson wave” is out of sight, out of mind, as quickly and painlessly as possible.
For me, well I can’t really forget about my period, about Her.
I have what some may call an “upset” uterus. She tends to be a bit mean, causing cysts and hormone deficiencies in me. Her and I used to fight quite frequently. I would throw various types of hormones at her; did that ever peeve her off. My body went into a hyper state of nausea and vomiting and She got back at me by visiting me more often then usual. After a year of fighting that battle (I am quite stubborn) I decided to take a more natural approach, visiting all sorts of natural doctors, filling my body with herbs, not eating, wheat, dairy or sugars.
After a day of that… just kidding, after a summer of depriving myself of all things wonderful tasting (except for my occasional slip for pizza) I finally had a good talk with Her. We decided it was time we settle the battle and try working together, rather than against each other. My inclination towards reconciliation came from the acupuncture therapist I was seeing at the time. She had encouraged me to talk to my uterus. She asked me: “If you could talk to your uterus, what would you say?” I thought long and hard about that and realized I was quite angry at my uterus, in fact I’m pretty sure I hated Her. I all too soon realized that hating a part of what makes me the woman I am today, was probably a huge part of the problem.
And so after much complaining and pouting, I entered a rather close relationship with Her. It wasn’t easy, I am still working on our relationship; we spend many nights together, Her and I, and a bottle of muscle relaxants of course.
This blog for me is about my experience getting to know my uterus. It is also a sound board for my upcoming graduate work on menstrual health and the feminine hygiene industry. I hope that you will share your stories of Her with me and that together we can erase the many negative discourses that have for so long plagued Her.
She is actually quite nice once you get to know her. She is also very misunderstood and has endured much criticism and judgment over the years. She has been prodded, tested, infected and all too often removed from the one thing she loves most, women. I know it may sound weird to talk to your uterus, but have you ever actually tried it? It’s not so bad, a bit weird at first, but after a while I realized that in getting to know my uterus, I was getting to know myself.